Tuesday, March 29, 2011

A Kryptonian's Contemplation

Few months back, I just turned 24 and since January, I have been contemplating on a lot of things. There are questions lingering on my mind that need immediate answers. Questions such as where am I really headed to? What on Earth am I here for? What’s my destiny? How will I reach my utmost potential? These I know are hard to answer and I want to know the answers soon.

Yes, I did graduate with a degree in Marketing and I am indeed proud of it. I’ve had my fair share of great marketing jobs and I have learned a lot from them. Though I believe that I’m a passionate marketer, is this what I really want? Is this the career that would give me utmost happiness? The answer is still uncertain. I’ve had my ups and downs in this career and I can say that I didn’t have regrets. I may have disappointed a lot of people but the hurtful ones were those instances when I have disappointed myself. I know I’m good, well actually I know I’m a great marketer. There have been times when I’m surprised with the amount of hard work and creativity I’ve put into a certain project. There have been times wherein I never knew I was capable of doing those kinds of things and fortunately I was able to pull through. Things like these enter my mind now that I am once again pursuing for a new marketing career. These are the things that I say to my interviewers and I can see that most of them have seen the real passion that I have for marketing. I have even turned down some of them because this time, I really want to stay in the next company that I’ll be part of. I want to call it my home! No pretentions! I don’t want to settle anymore! I have to find the perfect tick.

However, in the process of finding for the perfect marketing job, something won’t stop knocking on my door and he keeps on telling me, “What the hell Thirdee, have you forgotten about me?” and then he started singing the songs that I love to sing; songs that I have been singing for the past two decades. I didn’t know what it meant and eventually it hit me, I really miss performing in front of a lot of people. I miss the deafening applause and the blinding lights. I miss it badly. L

What on earth am I here for? I’m still hoping that my destiny is to make music and make it as inspiration to a lot of people. I still believe that there a lot of opportunities out there. I won’t give up! Someone (:-D) has introduced me to a possible new avenue and I might try it out. I just hope that this time, the stars would align properly.

My career may still be uncertain now but I’m willing to accept what God has planned for me. I know that wherever I may be, I can still become the Superman that I’m destined to be.

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